First!

Its 2.30am and i am writing a draft for my first entry for my new blog.
I somehow cock up my old blog and now i cant log in. Crap.
Anyway this new blog is redefine and improved. Hahaha so it shld be much much better

Anyway Mind me if tis post gonna be emo or something like that.
Was in my uncle's car a few days back and i was looking thru his dvd's in his car and i came across the show "Lake House"
And i tot to myself , " viona once told me that it was a great movie and that i shld catch it with some1 i like"
Well it would have been you but since i have nobody to watch with, LoL I decided to watch it at night on my bed on my laptop alone.

The show like what mary jane said, is special and great. It would really have been great to have been able to catch it with her or maybe with mel but oh well like wat she suggested. Friends. Furthermore she calls me bro.

Lake house is abt 2 ppl from 2 different time meeting in a very weird and unique circumstance. After chatting thru mails they fall in love but however cant meet up becos they are 2 yrs apart. However they tried meeting in the future but the guy(keanu reaves) nvr showed up. But its becos he died wanting to see her. Its kinda complicated but somehow, he did not die wen the girl realise why he nvr showed up and somehow manage to prevent him from dying.
And like most love story, they all end up being together - happy ending.
The girl requested one favour from him, that he were to wait for her. he did and finally after 4 yrs they were together

As usual after watching such an emo show, i became motivated to blog abt it. LoL. I rmb telling mel tat i'll wait for her and all, till after a's but somehow she forgot i guess and she has this perception that i dun like her anymore. Well infact i still do but for her sake, i jus say i dun. If i do, i'll only make things worst for her nad maybe for me also but i jus cant help thinking abt her and stuff and all. Well i dun think i'll tell her tis new add of mine, well cause tis is something she shld not see or read. I dunwan to spoil the friendship i hav with her right now. This time i aint gonna screw it up. I dun expect anything from tis friendship and i certainly cant control whatever i am feeling but haiz. You know i read tis phrase before " lonely is to sit beside some1 u care so much and want to be with but to have nth to do wit tat person". that perfectly describe how i'm feeling right now

Guess that is wat i am feeling right now. Its stupid, me liking her i mean. Its so stupid cause its something that will nvr happen and its something i can never imagine. Honestly, she was the person who actually made me forget abt viona and actually made me feel something again and actually made me smile and all that.It may have been awhile only ( the time we were close friends!) but thanks ya. You made me feel again what it was to care and like some1 very much. You made me realise that although viona left me, i can still love and have feelings for some1. Thanks ya

When she found out last time that i liked her, things were really fuck up and i really regretted telling her that i liked her. I shld have kept my mouth shut. Like how i did with viona for 2yrs. Keeping my mouth shut. Fuck if i can turn back time, i would have not send her the msg saying (i can rmb clearly haha cause i have great memory) " it would not have been a date if i did not send u home!" I should hav jus end the conversation there and then. Anyway there is no point in regretting.

Well, i guess i'm not gd enuf compared to tik. Maybe i shld pick up skating. LoL
Since i'll nvr get to say tis to u in person or ever well let me say it here

" You are some1 special to me "

Though i am not to u!! LoL!

Signing out at 3am - woah took 30mins to write this. Mind my poor language - haven been doing gp for abt 1mth plus =D