New year eve cum hari raya haji

Had a great time after a real long time.
With my family
Both dad and mum side

U noe the saying, family stays unlike frens and all that, its so true man
LoL
Wen u are down and in deep shit
They are the ones who'll help u

Hahaha

Anyway grandma having some prob. And i feel sad for her
Very
Its not fair for her, i mean she has been suffering for almost her whole life.

Anyway my new year resolution is
1) pick up photography
2)Hone my guitar skills
3) Enter ocs
4)Not fall for another girl - the one i am experiencing right now suxs
5)Save up!

The list goes on but i rather not put it down cause i bet i'll only get abt 1/5 of it done, if i am lucky tat is or, i'll most prob forget abt it by next week
haha

Its 4am

Just had a tok with yasmin and she drove me mad man,haha

Anyway been doing lots of thinking.
I realise i've quite a number of superficial frens
Those who said they wan2 keep in contact but only to lazy to do tat
Was jus thinking of my odac frens. but anyway i was jus with dem for 3mths only
and with my recent breakup with viona-odac vp, i'm sure they rather not have me in any grp outings and all tat

So there goes one of my grp of frens

Life is to short
No point brooding abt it

And i told many tat i dun care abt her, but i still do. Though she treats me like FUCK i still do
Man i am one screwed up freak.

Prata hse icekimo night out

Met up with kairen and eileen
frens from sitex 06
Hahaha
kinda cool that we are gg out for dinners after jus knowing each other for 4 days
Guess we can click easily

Prata at prata hse was great
But the lady behind us was annoying
Trying to preach us

Eileen brought us to icekimo and the place is nice; perfect to chill and chat
The ice cream was ok

We chatted and chatted and somehow get to noe each other much better.
Haha

Kairen inspire me to start "photoshopping"
and we are gg out for photography night one night!
before ns i hope.

1T08

Yes after abt a year and a half?
i met my beloved 1t08!
But as usual not every1 can make it
so the next outing will be on Monday, DINNER! PLS MAKE IT THIS TIME!
LoL

Anyway me jiajie jiahong and greg was there
had lunch and tok cock
pool and tok cock
lan and much laughter
haha

really had a great time with them
Fuck if only i was in cjc
oh well

Anyway i aint gonna fall for u again .
Tis time enud is enuf

Merry xmas

Fuck the celebrations la
Everytime there is such joyous occasion or celebrations, i dunno why but i jus dun seem to have the mood to celebrate.
I'll just Start to remember all my memories, gd and bad. That is wen i feel fucked.LoL

Like i said
Fuck xmas man

Anyway cant wait for wed and thursday

And i regretted giving mel the perfume
Lazy to type it here but i guess i shld stop trying.
Am jus wasting my time and energy.
She dun even care and all tat.
Fuck up

Like wat mubin said, maybe we shld jus pursue the life of a monk.
=D

Met edwin today. Had a gd time with him. Hey bro u fucking owe me lunch twice =D

My day

Was simpy fucked up
Gym with jian was ok
But after mosque my day was starting to get screwed
Got caught in the rain and so i had lunch drenched

Went home and then mel changed the time again
And i was damn angry and then i felt bad as she said she was from doctor.
She did not even sit down for coffee, took the stuff and wen off
Felt fucked up but wAT the heck
Like wat dan said , forget abt it, its not worth it

Then i had to go to kallang
The fucking taxi driver me abt 1km away from the place
and i had to fucking walk
the place was muddy also
fuck
wasted my time

Then wen to gramps, and i got back by a lady who wanted to sit in the train badly plus i got bang by the fucking mrt door
Fuck

Then after tat was jus in a bad mood
But hack
Dunno why i get so frustrated with mel.

She dun even appreciate stuff i do sia
Fuck it
bYE

Again

I think u are out there to play me
Oh well

First it was on then it was not
Then u change the time
Like fuck!

Anyway wen for lunch with dan
And he gave me a hell of a scolding abt u noe wat
But fuck sia. Cant help it right

Wen over to grandma and her condition is bad
Hope she will get better. Kinda worried abt her.
Then i fell aslp and tat made nadya cry. But i was to tired so i could not be bothered. Felt kinda bad though

Woke up and met up with jian at bishan and we had coffee bean.
Then wen to meet mum at PS and shop ard for her party at home.
LoL and i took the opportunity to complain to her alot of stuff!
haha
Then got home and i gym for an hr

That was all i did.
Pretty boring.
Anyway am feeling damn frustrated right now.
FUCK

Now i am pissed

Ok morning was fun
Went out with mubin and dan and mubin's fren for soccer

Dunno wat happen to my fitness and skills la
hahaa
must train back alr

Then mubin helped me choose a very ungay wrapping paper for my xmas gift for mel
Its an anna sui perfume. Smell damn nice and looks damn nice too!

So the day was ok
Night wen out for dinner wit family and dan
Then mel sms me
saying she wans to go shopping with me. I was kinda happy. hahahaha
but then after 1 hr
She fell sick
so its canceled
i have nth to say alr

Haiz
She jus have to bring my hopes up and then destroy it
Guess its fun right

Fuck u

SIck

Yes i am sick!
And the weird thing is tat i think i got it from my cus who is only 4 yrs old. Hahaha
Oh man i better start my traning again! If not i'll be dead in ns!

Ok set this monday which means tmr.....i'll do my long runs!! maybe not so long

Well as usual i have been out the whole day
Sat wen out for dinner at mad jack and food suck suck suck. Dunno why tat day it suck
I wen home feeling sick and i cant slp till 4am.
Puke
Fever
Flu
Headache
U name it

Today wen out to meet dan for his bdae awhile. Dan wen out shopping with mum and i got myself 50BUCKS!! plus nice perfumes and VCD AND DVD!!
GD DAY!

haha
Oh and i bought dan's present and i am so broke now!
hahaha

Omen is a freaky show. Maybe i'll make dan watch it but it is like impossible.
Hopefully tmr's outing wld be a success

and right now i am not sure if thursday is still on...knowing her, she most probABLY Forgot abt it or cant be bothered. Oh well.

prom 06

Ok here are the long overdue pics for prom. Sorry i took so long to uplOAD.Btw the first pic is actually the lst pic and the last pic is the first pic but th com decided to screw me up. so here it is!! Enjoy



I just cant take a gd pic with her!! something is wrong wit me!!!hahaha
I'm such an ass
My best bud!!!
We love chem lessons man. hahaha. CJW =D
My class is scary!!! Right?!?!?!
Omg i just love him man!!
My track team
Shit i'm the only one who is single!!
Throw,Mid,Long,Long,Long,Mid
that's wat we do

Bz bz bz

Yes i've been damn bz tis few days
Helping grandma
Helping dad
Going out with dan
Going out with track
Going out with track and dan
Watching prison break until the whole season is over

Been going out to often and tmr i'll be out also!
I think its time for me to have more time for my own!!
And complete all the games i b0ught!

hahaha

Anyway lots of stuff been going thru my mind. Maybe i'll jus say it here one day

Btw today outing with mark aravin and dan and jian was fun!
The movie was great and the lunch to and everything else
i was lauhing most of the time!
hahahaha

love dem man!
will post the gay pics later on!

Been awhile

Yea been awhile since i wen out for a family outing with the whole family
Was ok la, but did not get anything, none of us did. Tried godiva latte and damn it was so fucking nice, its worth the 8bucks my mum paid.

Then walk ard and we had dinner at some chicken rice franchise. It was my second time there, first was at malaysia and it was kinda nice actually.
hahaha

Oh ya did not mention that we went to vivocity. They tot tat i've not been there so i had to look suprise and all that. Hahaha. K lame

Anyway wen to grandparent place and i fell aslp.
Got home very late and tmr morning got to send my grandma to doctor. mus be there by 8.30am meaning i have to wake up at 6.30am. hahaa

ok i shld be slping right now!haha
i'm so dead

Jus another boring day

Been going out alot. Think i need to start staying home for awhile. Hahaha
Anyway today will be out to shop for Nadya's bdae present!! Yay
Maybe i'll get her a spiderman mask. hahaha

Oh and edwin ytd sms me. Hahaha. He sounds depressed! and he claims that its mudurous and tortoruos. omfg my spelling sux!!!!

Really starting to miss his lame stupid jokes and our emo topics. hahaha

Oh and all the best mel for today's thingy. Since u say tat i am more excited then u, i wont wish u alr! Bugger!! hahaha

Anyway will post pics of prom and the dinner with ed later on.

Gtg, playing dota with dan

Just got back

Jus got back from dinner at holland village wit mel and ed

Food was ok! But it was weird cause mel was there. Hahaha and i really do like her but well i guess she thinks i dun alr. I guess its best its kept like that. At least i get to be her "brother" or close fren is better then to not have anything to do with her right? Right?

Anyway got for edwin a damn cool lighter for my dear edwin. A spiderman lighter hahaha but hey bro i do not condone ur smoking habits ok! Fucker if u die of smoking dun blame me ok but anyway its refillable =D

Food was gd but expensive and sry ed i am really broke man, i paid some money for my laptop and totally broke!! When i really get the pay i'll treat u something nice ok!
Actually wanted to walk ard with u but i guess u wanted to go home and all right. Get ready for tomorrow. Gonna miss u alot! Really.

Anyway glad u did not do nything with me and mel like push me to her and all tat crap but fucker always ask me sit with her.
hahahaha
And bro i really do like her alot. She waS the one that made me forget abt viona.....haiz

First!

Its 2.30am and i am writing a draft for my first entry for my new blog.
I somehow cock up my old blog and now i cant log in. Crap.
Anyway this new blog is redefine and improved. Hahaha so it shld be much much better

Anyway Mind me if tis post gonna be emo or something like that.
Was in my uncle's car a few days back and i was looking thru his dvd's in his car and i came across the show "Lake House"
And i tot to myself , " viona once told me that it was a great movie and that i shld catch it with some1 i like"
Well it would have been you but since i have nobody to watch with, LoL I decided to watch it at night on my bed on my laptop alone.

The show like what mary jane said, is special and great. It would really have been great to have been able to catch it with her or maybe with mel but oh well like wat she suggested. Friends. Furthermore she calls me bro.

Lake house is abt 2 ppl from 2 different time meeting in a very weird and unique circumstance. After chatting thru mails they fall in love but however cant meet up becos they are 2 yrs apart. However they tried meeting in the future but the guy(keanu reaves) nvr showed up. But its becos he died wanting to see her. Its kinda complicated but somehow, he did not die wen the girl realise why he nvr showed up and somehow manage to prevent him from dying.
And like most love story, they all end up being together - happy ending.
The girl requested one favour from him, that he were to wait for her. he did and finally after 4 yrs they were together

As usual after watching such an emo show, i became motivated to blog abt it. LoL. I rmb telling mel tat i'll wait for her and all, till after a's but somehow she forgot i guess and she has this perception that i dun like her anymore. Well infact i still do but for her sake, i jus say i dun. If i do, i'll only make things worst for her nad maybe for me also but i jus cant help thinking abt her and stuff and all. Well i dun think i'll tell her tis new add of mine, well cause tis is something she shld not see or read. I dunwan to spoil the friendship i hav with her right now. This time i aint gonna screw it up. I dun expect anything from tis friendship and i certainly cant control whatever i am feeling but haiz. You know i read tis phrase before " lonely is to sit beside some1 u care so much and want to be with but to have nth to do wit tat person". that perfectly describe how i'm feeling right now

Guess that is wat i am feeling right now. Its stupid, me liking her i mean. Its so stupid cause its something that will nvr happen and its something i can never imagine. Honestly, she was the person who actually made me forget abt viona and actually made me feel something again and actually made me smile and all that.It may have been awhile only ( the time we were close friends!) but thanks ya. You made me feel again what it was to care and like some1 very much. You made me realise that although viona left me, i can still love and have feelings for some1. Thanks ya

When she found out last time that i liked her, things were really fuck up and i really regretted telling her that i liked her. I shld have kept my mouth shut. Like how i did with viona for 2yrs. Keeping my mouth shut. Fuck if i can turn back time, i would have not send her the msg saying (i can rmb clearly haha cause i have great memory) " it would not have been a date if i did not send u home!" I should hav jus end the conversation there and then. Anyway there is no point in regretting.

Well, i guess i'm not gd enuf compared to tik. Maybe i shld pick up skating. LoL
Since i'll nvr get to say tis to u in person or ever well let me say it here

" You are some1 special to me "

Though i am not to u!! LoL!

Signing out at 3am - woah took 30mins to write this. Mind my poor language - haven been doing gp for abt 1mth plus =D